On losing my job...

I never, ever, in a million years thought that I'd be unemployed. And now that I'm staring down the barrel of it, I'm kinda freaking out. Actually, I'm really freaking out.

And for good reason. I JUST started this job in January after leaving the company that nurtured me from a young pup fresh out of college to the experienced, moderately intelligent, tragically charismatic person I am today. Without a job. Sorry I keep going back to that. Anyway after finally kicking myself out of the nest in December I started a new gig with a great company with great potential, just an all around good situation. And boom, as quickly as it came, its gone again. And I'm left without a job, without a plan and with plenty of fears.

I have never not had a job. Okay fine. Revise that. I have never not had a job since I was 14. That's still a 13 year working streak that is about to be abruptly ended.

Not to mention the budget implications. Now I don't live lavishly, by any stretch. But I do like to make meaningful purchases, or go out for memorable moments with friends and family. But that goes away when you're getting a "paycheck" from the government every week for a fraction of your prior salary. I'm pretty sure government issued cheese and something about a van down by a river comes next.

I digress.

It's not about the money, it's about how limiting not having the money is. So, I guess it is about the money.

I have given a lot of thought about what I'm going to do with all this time on my hands. I finally have time to do all the things I've been wanting to do, like paint the bathrooms, and actually paint and decorate our very blah bedroom. And search for the perfect piece of art to hang over the couch. Take the pups to the groomers for looooong over due baths and mani/pedis. Maybe I'll get a mani/pedi! Or a massage! But then I remember, all of that, every last bit of it, costs money. Money money money.

And then I get depressed because, I remember that everything comes with a price tag. So I still have no idea what I'm going to do with myself, or how I'm going to do anything at all, other than sit at home, without spending money, or spending very little.

I have less than two days to figure out how to avoid becoming a miserable, unemployed, house hermit. Suggestions welcomed...

I guess the good news is that I can spend my entire day at the gym... awesssssome....